I'm glad to have found this forum. I grew up in a none religious Sunni family. Although some of the older generation in my family prayed 5 times a day, it was always pretty laid back. I was always told that what matters is the heart, and praying would happen to those who are ready.
As it would happen to me later , of course in a time of hardship. I actually learned how to pray through the internet, the traditional way.
But after a while the ritual felt empty and robotic. I also had a real problem with wudhu. I learnt it also through the internet, you wash your nose to the point of irritation and wash your feet passing your hand between the toes... until I my athlete foot got really bad.
Prayer became a drag, I lied to myself for a while because I thought this was the way. But one day on the net I came across an Edip Yuksel article about real Islam being a Quran only religion. It made sense to me because some Hadith didn't make any sense. I was never an expert but there was one that revolted me. It was the Prophet's so called farewell sermon
where he compares women to domesticated animals. Like cattle or sheep. I remember thinking how satanic that was because it implied that I was born from the bellie of a goat or the likes
So fast forward a decade and came across Sam Gerrans. Some of his work blew my mind. May Allah bless him and keep him as well as all of you. We are truth searchers.
As it would happen to me later , of course in a time of hardship. I actually learned how to pray through the internet, the traditional way.
But after a while the ritual felt empty and robotic. I also had a real problem with wudhu. I learnt it also through the internet, you wash your nose to the point of irritation and wash your feet passing your hand between the toes... until I my athlete foot got really bad.
Prayer became a drag, I lied to myself for a while because I thought this was the way. But one day on the net I came across an Edip Yuksel article about real Islam being a Quran only religion. It made sense to me because some Hadith didn't make any sense. I was never an expert but there was one that revolted me. It was the Prophet's so called farewell sermon
where he compares women to domesticated animals. Like cattle or sheep. I remember thinking how satanic that was because it implied that I was born from the bellie of a goat or the likes
So fast forward a decade and came across Sam Gerrans. Some of his work blew my mind. May Allah bless him and keep him as well as all of you. We are truth searchers.
