nedimtabakovic1977@icloud
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Short story.
My name is Nedim Tabaković (son of my father Šefik), I’m 46 year old married, full time working, father of two daughters. Born in city Sarajevo, in mostly non religious family with “muslim” names and “roots”. I was elementary school child when the war here started. After war it was just continuation of survival game, got involved in gangster like stuff, but that felt wrong and started ridiculing my homies about their way of life and it was time to kill that ego and move on. The religion was still like some backward thing to me, but series of events led me to read translation of Qur’an and guys I would not recommend that to anyone who does not “purify” himself before that action. I was thinking to myself when I tell anyone about this book they will automatically become believers. My mother after my first preaching attempt was worried and scared. I started going to the mosque just mimicking what others do. In my twenties I was peaking in sunni cult, I felt like this is it, the real deal. I met “dervish” cult, sufism was also present trough out… Then I got involved in Young Muslim organization
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Young_Muslims
I was rather popular there like I never was in my whole life but I was still wondering is this completely right? During my time involved in this organization I even visited Iran that visit was organized by “Ibn Sina institute”, and that was like some almost unreal experience, Isfahan was like some ancient movie scene, protests in Teheran where millions of people protests on the streets I was left in awe.
After that in hometown mosques I started questioning why is present this anti shia rhetoric, I found that strange since they seemed more Islamic then sunnies are. Later on questioning even some rather minor things led to split with this organization. Started working again in “real” sector heating-gas, then got job in electric line company in Libya (just before the war there) I even led ramadan terawih namaz in Libya desert, I had all of this skyrocketing my righteous believer ego. Returned home and I wanted to get married, firstly I was only interested in girls with head cover praying five times a day etc…but they mostly seemed off… I got married with my current wife she is regular girl no head scarf, namaz here and there…sweet and full of joy..
Now my mission was to start preaching to her about the headscarf five daily namaz etc. but since I knew my preaching skills are not good I started watching this street “dawa” guys since they seemed really good in this, and I was so drawn into this, but then I saw some guys saying hadiths are not to been taken seriously and on YT there was this funny guy “mufti Abu Layth” who ridiculed some “sacred religious” stuff like wait do you guys even think this stories about prophet and messenger are more valuable then the Qur’an? And unexpected backfire started, now killing my overblown religious ego is harder then the “gangster” one (ugly and nasty harder then quitting cigarets alcohol and drugs)…after this troublesome period I started finding more and more people who properly respect Qur’an, and here I am, Sam did a great job and Mirza was involved. Now struggle continues…
My name is Nedim Tabaković (son of my father Šefik), I’m 46 year old married, full time working, father of two daughters. Born in city Sarajevo, in mostly non religious family with “muslim” names and “roots”. I was elementary school child when the war here started. After war it was just continuation of survival game, got involved in gangster like stuff, but that felt wrong and started ridiculing my homies about their way of life and it was time to kill that ego and move on. The religion was still like some backward thing to me, but series of events led me to read translation of Qur’an and guys I would not recommend that to anyone who does not “purify” himself before that action. I was thinking to myself when I tell anyone about this book they will automatically become believers. My mother after my first preaching attempt was worried and scared. I started going to the mosque just mimicking what others do. In my twenties I was peaking in sunni cult, I felt like this is it, the real deal. I met “dervish” cult, sufism was also present trough out… Then I got involved in Young Muslim organization
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Young_Muslims
I was rather popular there like I never was in my whole life but I was still wondering is this completely right? During my time involved in this organization I even visited Iran that visit was organized by “Ibn Sina institute”, and that was like some almost unreal experience, Isfahan was like some ancient movie scene, protests in Teheran where millions of people protests on the streets I was left in awe.
After that in hometown mosques I started questioning why is present this anti shia rhetoric, I found that strange since they seemed more Islamic then sunnies are. Later on questioning even some rather minor things led to split with this organization. Started working again in “real” sector heating-gas, then got job in electric line company in Libya (just before the war there) I even led ramadan terawih namaz in Libya desert, I had all of this skyrocketing my righteous believer ego. Returned home and I wanted to get married, firstly I was only interested in girls with head cover praying five times a day etc…but they mostly seemed off… I got married with my current wife she is regular girl no head scarf, namaz here and there…sweet and full of joy..
Now my mission was to start preaching to her about the headscarf five daily namaz etc. but since I knew my preaching skills are not good I started watching this street “dawa” guys since they seemed really good in this, and I was so drawn into this, but then I saw some guys saying hadiths are not to been taken seriously and on YT there was this funny guy “mufti Abu Layth” who ridiculed some “sacred religious” stuff like wait do you guys even think this stories about prophet and messenger are more valuable then the Qur’an? And unexpected backfire started, now killing my overblown religious ego is harder then the “gangster” one (ugly and nasty harder then quitting cigarets alcohol and drugs)…after this troublesome period I started finding more and more people who properly respect Qur’an, and here I am, Sam did a great job and Mirza was involved. Now struggle continues…
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rather mockery, or is this is the manifestation of the “drunken humans without opoids”, next was disection of ritualistic prayer towards “kaba” and the “holy black stone” well that was more profound and harder to see trough…thanks for your welcome 
