I was born in a Shia family. Since teenage years, I had the urge to know the truth about our world and the unseen. I was interested in the mysterious parts of the human history like the purpose of the pyramids, Bermuda triangle, or how the mediumship works etc. I remember there was a book called "Chariots of the Gods? Unsolved Mysteries of the Past" written by Erich von Däniken and many other books about the theories of our past and the unseen in my teenage years. Another book was called the Green Island (located at the Bermuda triangle), in which the writers of that book, among whom were some Shia scholars, claimed that the last of the Twelve Imams of Shia and the eschatological Mahdi, who will emerge in the end of time to establish peace and justice and redeem Islam, lives there. I had lots of questions about everything. Till the age of 30 I have been busy studying every possible and available subject in Persian and English to answer my questions. I have also practiced some religions and tried many famous spirituality-related psychedelics to quench my thirst for the truth, but after like 15 years I had no success. There was no actual convincing information in the books and on the internet. I have almost read hundreds of books, but I missed one book, which I was surrounded since the childhood and I didn't take it seriously. Most of the time I was reciting some Quranic verses in Arabic without knowing their meanings, and sometimes I read in Persian, but I didn’t really get what message it was conveying. So, the book was abounded.
I was at an age I had to decide in which way I want to lead my life. As an atheist without any boundaries or as a God-fearing person, but I needed at least an answer to one of my questions, which was, “will there be a judgement day or not?”
I don’t know why, but during my life I spent many years reading man-written information and seeking help in man-written books, and I had never tried asking God and seeking His help and guidance directly. Maybe I was not programmed and educated to consider that way as an actual functioning way.
I was frustrated, and I called upon God and told Him, if you exist and if there will be a judgement day, you can not blame me for anything, because I spent lots of years and I have done my due diligence to find you and I found nothing. So, if you are really there, please guide me somehow because I have to choose now, how I want to live the rest of my life.
Since that day, my life changed. Some trials happened to my life. I came across new people. I came across Sam Gerrans' translation and for the first time I studied Quran and all my questions were answered with convincing evidences by God’s leave. It is very difficult to describe a spiritual journey. I can only say, I was looking for something higher than this earthy realm and I got it. That was God’s confirmation stamp for me on His words in the Quran and on every evidence we can observe in this universe.
Since then, I stuck to the words of the Almighty and I have been seeking help only and directly from Him.
I have found the most precious thing in the universe and God willing I will never ever lose it again.
Peace and blessings!
